Wednesday, July 28, 2010

It's only fitting!

Greetings all! The last time I sat down to write a short post, it was July, 2009. Seems like an eternity ago but in fact it was just a brief trip back. I was very sad that day as I posted about the heartbreak of our neighbors, Chad and Mandy and the loss of her baby. My sadness resulted from a dream that was shattered and a very fine young woman who was left wondering why? That's the question we all ask when we think were in the middle of life's garbage dump. Quite frankly, I have asked it many times. Each time I thought the situation would be the end of me, or at minimum, leave me scarred forever. Each time, I looked at the moment as we never get to view the future. The older I get the more thankful for that I am. It makes me live the day, the hour, the moment, each second. Right now is all I really have to understand and I try to live every moment with as much life as I can squeeze into it. I work hard, I live hard, I love my family with all that I am. I thank God over and over during the day for all the things He gives to me enjoy, fret about, be upset about, get worked up over, cry some, feel the pain some...all life. I thank God He has given me a help mate to live life with and that she loves it like I do. I thank God everyday for Tony. He keeps my feet on the ground. For Elaina, she remind me that I must dream....that's all she has. For Kierra. She holds my heart in her hands, and likes to squeeze it just to see how love works! And tonight I have something else to be so very thankful for. Breanna Grace Schut. The middle name says it all. Grace. God's grace. The gift of a beautiful daughter just one year and a few days from the time the first child was taken away. God is so good to us. I'm so glad I can't see the future! It might change how I react to the moment and the moment is what God uses to make us into who He wants us to be. Maybe if Mandy had seen the future, she would not have grown through the grief she experienced. I don't know. What I do know is that there are two wonderful friends and neighbors whose life will never be the same again and it gives me great pleasure to be able to get on my knees and thank God for answered prayer for them. God's Grace. Breanna Grace...may she be a blessing to both of them as they raise her. May they seek to train her to know the God that made the miracle possible!